Okay so I guess I just needed some sort of advice, and this is the only place I could think of, so I hope this is okay.
So I'm 20, a lesbian, and only came out about 8 months ago. I go to uni, and have a nice group of friends who I'm going to be sharing a big flat with next school year, there are 8 of us. I have developed a huge crush on one of the girls I'm living with, she's also gay, and we "jokingly" flirt alot, like I can't tell if she's being serious, and to prevent myself from getting hurt I pretend I'm not serious. She's so wonderful, and genuinely I've struggled so much to meet people, and she is the first person in a long long time I've had a proper crush on. Basically I really really like this girl, and I swear I'm falling harder for her everyday.
There's a general rule about not dating or sleeping with your flatmates, and my friends are pretty big on that rule and want to be strict about it, so I'm almost certain, even if she did like me back, nothing could come of it.
I know I need to get over her, but the possibility of something happening between us stops me from moving on because I want it to happen so badly. But I can't say anything to her because if she doesn't feel the same it would seriously screw alot of things up, and make next school year really awkward.
I just don't know what to do, I'm almost dreading next year because I'm so sensitive I'll probably cry if she got a girlfriend or brought a girl over lol, I really need to move on, get over her, because deep down I know nothing will or can happen between us, even if she feels the same way.
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