Last year I watched one TV series and I started to like one character. He was vulnerable and sensitive guy. Then I decided to get to know the actor who played him. I searched his entire filmography, he was popular before and was in blockbusters, I didn`t watch those blockbusters, I was surprised and also I searched photos. Also I wanted to search another additional photos from his soc. media and I was shocked so much. He`s so toxic in his soc.media and loves to argue. He`s so different than his vulnerable TV character. He argued with another actor, because he wanted to take part in one film, but they didn`t accept him, that`s why he was so angry. I thought he was nice guy, and I felt discomfort inside of me. It was a little disappointment. Honestly, I am not happy that this actor appeared in my life. But I like him, he`s British actor, he looks so Nordic, because I`m interested in the Nordic countries. Sometimes he looks like a Finn, I won`t be surprised if he has Finnish ancestry. He doesn`t tell about his ancestry cause he`s a secretive man. Sorry I can`t tell his name, honestly I can`t.
He also sings songs. I don’t like the way he cries, he cried in one movie and TV series. Tears don`t suit him. Few years ago he appeared in one TV series that changed his life and he became popular, he cried a lot in this show and I didn`t like the atmosphere in this show. I felt so blue. But another main character`s tears from Mr. Robot doesn`t irritate me, sometimes I want to hug him.
I just didn`t like what he did when he was young in his acting career but two supportive roles were good. I understand that when you`re young, you`re ready for everything and it`s normal. But 5 years ago he changed himself, slightly grew up and his roles became different perhaps he started to think logically.
Also I don’t like his one fangirl, she`s very obsessed with him and idolize him, she has a husband and a child, she has watched movies, TV shows and interviews with him.
I`m so confused and really don`t know what to do with my confused feelings towards him. Maybe it`s a jealousy towards him or he touched me very much?