I have spent the last 4 months constantly in some form of inpatient care unit. They sent me home recently and have said I need to adjust to being back in society. I do not feel safe out of care, the last few times I was sent home I ended up back in ED. But ultimately the issue is that I don’t see how I will ever not feel this way. I don’t want to be alive, I hate myself and I think that everyone would be better off without me. This makes me feel like I am wasting everyone’s time and I should just end it all now to stop taking up space in the already overcrowded mental health system. Is it even possible to get back to normal at this point? I have been diagnosed with PTSD, Generalised Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder and BPD (which I am struggling to come to terms with). I don’t know how to come back from all of this. Any advice is much appreciated, I am sorry this is so long.