Hi, just like the title says, I was molested and I don't know how to talk about it with the people close to me. My parent would often show me porn thinking it was 'funny', was often naked in front of me thinking it was totally normal and expected me to be naked in front of them and feel comfortable. I finally admit that something is wrong with our relationship because a few months ago, I woke up to them laying in my bed touching my genitals. I was 17 at the time. I'm 18 years old right now and I've moved out of that home because I was also experiencing physical and mental abuse from my other parent. There's really nothing holding me back from talking about it because I won't have to worry about child protective services or being forced out of my home or anything like that. To be honest, I'm just riddled with guilt that I'm calling my parent a molester. I love them a lot and they were the good parent, always taking my side and standing up for me when my physically/mentally abusive parent took advantage of me. We don't have much contact anymore but when we do it's usual supportive or lighthearted conversations and they often send me care packages of food and essentials. It really makes it hard to accept that this caring and loving parent of mine sexually assaulted me. I think they just honestly don't know how much their actions have hurt me.
I'm also afraid that no one will believe me. Like I said, this parent is very caring and I'm afraid of people accusing me of lying or overreacting if I told my story. On the opposite end of the spectrum, I'm afraid people will take me seriously and will tell me to go to the police or file a report. It's just too complicated.
My bottom line is, I just want to talk to someone about it without being accused of lying but also without being pressured to take legal action. I just want to tell someone that I was violated and learn to cope with it so that I can move on with my life. Thank you for listening. I really appreciate everyone in the Jude family and this forum has helped me in so many ways ❤️