Trigger Warning: The following content contains topics related to underage sexual violence.
I had sex with some internet stranger when I was 15, he was in his late thirties. I just wanted my dad's attention. The sex was meaningless and nothing bad, nothing good. Later on I thought about it and realized he actually abused a minor. But is it still rape if it was a completely forgettable and void experience for me? I don't feel anything in particular towards it. I feel guilty about all the girls who were scarred for life and yet here I am, thinking oh I had random sex as a teenager, was it rape?