I will just write a quick trigger warning, just in case since I don't want to ruin the day of someone else. This post mentions death, grieving, anxiety and depression.
A while ago I had to experience the loss of someone near me, I already had experienced the loss of people near me but I don't know why this time was different (I don't know if maybe this time is different since this person died while being in my house) well, my mental health just went to worse since that. I been struggling a lot with my brain making worse case scenarios of my loved ones dying. And I been super anxious about everything, if I feel pain or just something weird I just start thinking that I will die.
I been crying a lot and I also have a lot of problems to sleep.
I just want to go back to that "normal me", like, I didn't used to think that much about those things and now I always end up thinking about it.
Thanks for reading this, just writing it helped a little
First, I’d just like to say that I am so sorry for your loss. Death is never easy, and how a person responds to it can differ each time. You are not alone in how you are feeling. Death is something that happens to everyone, but this doesn’t make the concept of it any easier. Getting a good night’s sleep may help ease your anxiety. When I am feeling upset, I try listening to something calming—whether that is an audiobook, or guided meditation. Here is one to get you started: https://youtu.be/O-6f5wQXSu8.
How you are feeling is normal. Death can be scary, and difficult to wrap your mind around. I am so glad that you said reaching out has helped you feel a little better. Sometimes, all it takes is to lay all of your thoughts and feelings on the table. If you have a strong support system, now is the time to reach out to them and let them know hwo you are feeling. They love you, and wouldn’t want you to deal with this on your own. Friends, family, and even your doctor are great places to find support. If you feel comfortable, I recommend speaking to a counselor. A counselor can be a great ally, and will listen without judgement. I really like http://www.psychologytoday.com because you can search by location and specification. If you’d rather not go that route, that is okay, too.
Something that I find helpful when trying to navigate depressive symptoms is exercise. It doesn’t have to be anything hardcore—a simple walk can sometimes be enough. Sometimes, getting some fresh air and sunshine can be a mood-booster. Here is some information on the benefits of exercise on mental health: https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/in-depth/depression-and-exercise/art-20046495.
I have been in a similar situation—I sometimes find myself lying awake because I am afraid death and dying. Here are some tips that have helped me settle down at night: https://adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/related-illnesses/sleep-disorders. I also struggle with the idea of losing loved ones. Something that helps me feel more relaxed is my love for them. I know this sounds simple, but some people find this helpful. Your love for those you hold dear can never be erased. It is something that you all will carry until the end of time. Even if a person is physically gone, you are still connected. Grief is completely normal, and you are not alone in how you’re feeling. It was very wise for you to reach out. Staying connected to others is what can help you navigate your emotions.
Hang in there,
Hello there, @Lainarian María ! I hope you're well. I'm so glad writing this helped a little bit. One of our peer counsellors, Andrea, will be answering your submission within 24 hours. Until then, stay strong!