I'm trying the best I can for my mental health. I'm trying to open up and its so hard for me and at this point it makes me feel like there is something wrong with me. I don't trust people so freely anymore and i think i messed up big time with someone that means alot to me. I feel lost because im scared to trust this person. I messed up big time and i know that our relationship is hanging by a thread. It doesn't help that I have a hard time communicating and i can't help but compare myself to his circle of friends. I don't like this version of me and I can't help but hate myself so much.