I had been depressed throughout my teen years but then like 2 years ago I found my drive, I started volunteering a lot and I joined many organizations and just, did stuff with my life that meant something to the world and other people, u know, kinda like found my purpose, and now all of those things just dont seem to matter during corona cause i cant do like 80% of them and people around me just dont get that im depressed again? like - they see me drawing (a big hobby of mine) 24/7 (i don't even eat or sleep enough lol) cause i do love it but mostly its a distraction, i cant bring myself to do the 20% of things i can still do because i just stopped seeing the point and people around me just try to convince me im actually happy because im drawing? like yeah drawing is great but not when you have to do it 24/7 to avoid all your uni and other work because you dont see the point in it anymore. I know people have it worse and i should just adjust somehow but i cant? idk like, I'm so angry with myself because i just cant change the things that are important to me and i lost everything that was important to me (that actually got me out of depression last time). and im really frustrated and disappointed in myself (and i dont know how to admit this to people) because i seem to just.. not be able to adjust like everyone else around me did. like -i dont understand how people arent just... having mental breakdows every day during this time???