Hi.. This is actually something I struggle to open up about. So for three years I was with my boyfriend and I'll put him in here as R. R and I had an apartment together for his kids and myself so that we can be a family. He broke up with me on my birthday due to money troubles and his dedication issues. R has caused me a lot of mental problems and now after so many months I'm scared to fall in love again. I'm really scared of that because if I trust someone with my name and money again, they'll do the same thing to me. R caused me to go to a psych ward because I had a plan to kill myself in the garage with one of my step dad's hunting knives. I was there for 72 hours and he didn't care; at all. He had no kind of empathy for trying to heal the relationship and try with me again knowing that I was in love with him even after the break up because of the fact that he was there for me during a really dark time of my life. I'm sorry if this is so much, this is something I really can't talk to my family about because I don't want to go back to where I was. I'm not as suicidal as I was last July and August, but I really struggle talking to people and having them hit on me. My ex was able to move on 3 months after I left with someone else. He threw out all of my clothes, all of my makeup, and tossed my social security card out as well. I'm really, really sorry if this is so much and I know I have PTSD. Everything that happened with this past relationship has made my MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) so much worse because the person I thought that I was going to marry and have a kid with left. He isn't coming back and I don't know what to do to move on.