Hi i'm a 20 years old girl from Italy.I'm 20 years old but i feel like i was 16. I never had a teenage life, never been at party (just once 2 years ago), never see the sunset with friends, never had a boy, never kissed a boy, never even spoke to a boy. I am not independent, i have 3 friends, something i don't know if they are true friends, we don't have that special friendship, you know?Anyway.. I live with my mom and her husband. My mom is soo protective, everytime i say i want to go to a place she say "why do you wanna go? You have to be carefull, people are mean" or stuff like that, and when i was younger i used to do what she said but now i don't (fortunatelly). I am extremely anxious, that's why i never had a life. I get imbarassed talking to anyone, i can't stand an eye contant, i feel uncomfortable even with my family. I feel every second under judge, even by myself. I don't have a job, i'm not studying and my parents keep making pressure on me about do something in life. I wanna do something, i wanna go away from them and start my life but i want to do it right know but don't know how. Please help me get rid of my anxious and find myself.. i don't know who i am, what i like or what i want to do. I just want to grow up but i'm also scared.. i'm not normal, i want to be a normal 20 years old girl..