People from my past, who I deeply cared about, even loved, neglected me, lied to me, cheated on me, gaslighted me. My parents emotionally abused me as well. So I have developed this trauma and as a result, I always think that all of the relationship I'm going to be in will always be like the ones I had from the past.
Now, I'm in a committed relationship. We love each other dearly. The problem is I always assume that I'm not wanted or loved. I feel neglected and ungrateful even when he is doing so much for me emotionally. He is very kind, understanding, and supportive. Yet I always assume that he will just get tired of me and leave me like all my past partners did. Now I'm afraid that he would, indeed, get tired of me and leave me if I keep on accusing him that he doesn't love me.
How do I stop these negative thoughts and feelings about him? I don't want to lose him and I want to get better so I can love him better.