Last night, my friend and I were talking about different things, mainly bad things he had done to me. He has been extremely toxic towards me in the past and present. It was honestly about time I break it off with him, as we've been friends for 3 years and he's always been weird and toxic towards me. He refused to see me as just a friend and only saw me as a romantic interest. He would constantly talk about his own problems and expected me to fix them, and often he would talk about problems he knew would trigger me, such as self harm, without warning me or asking if he could talk about it first. I hardly ever got to talk about my problems. If I did want to, I was always expected to ask if I could talk about my problems before I did and when I would vent about my problems, he'd always use them as a way to circle back to himself and his problems. He basically saw me as his "manic pixie dream girl," whether he knew it or not. Anyways, after we had talked and I told him I wanted to go to sleep, he told me, without warning, that he had cut himself just then. I told him I didn't need or want to hear that and told him how he'd always do things like that. He apologized, but I knew he didn't mean it. So, I got the courage to tell him I didn't want to be friends with him anymore. After that, he wouldn't answer me. I begged him to, but he wouldn't. I was afraid he was dead. I feel asleep out of pure exhaustion and woke up around 4 AM. He had texted me just a few minutes before I had woke up and told me he was in the hospital and would have to stay in a facility for a while. I'm glad he's not dead, but I still feel bad. But despite not feeling bad, I don't really feel guilty. I feel like I should think it's my fault, but I don't? Was it my fault he tried to kill himself? Am I a bad person for not feeling guilty?