i’ve been struggling with pocd since may. over time, the thoughts have gotten better but i’m afraid because i’m not reacting to them as bad as I was before. but because i’m not reacting to them as bad, i fear that i have become my thoughts or that the thoughts are true. another was if my intrusive thoughts are even intrusive thoughts which is making me the most upset right now. basically fearing that my OCD is fake and that my intrusive thoughts aren’t intrusive thoughts.
i cannot afford therapy nor do i have a therapist to go to about this, so anything is appreciated. thank you.