Every relationship in my life has ended this way... there’s nothing ever to return to either because I fall out with my friends or I decide I can’t handle it anymore. it takes so much effort for me to maintain anything between myself and another person that I just give up. and that hurts their feelings but eventually they let go too. I’ve grown to be quite impatient I guess and tend to give up easier every time although ive tried, I’ve tried my best to do better In the end I shut people out and block them if things don’t just fall away. but then again there was never much interest in me in the first place. if I don’t sound like a good friend from this well that’s right, and I’m boring company as well. Its so uncomfortable for me and for them. But I’m sick of running away all of the time. I feel like a coward. And weak. I want something in my life to end positively if not last.