Hi, first of all, i feel like im always coming here for advice so i just wanted to tell you how much i appreciate what youre doing here :) Anyway. So I've always identified as straight, I always liked boys and dated boys and whenever I think about something relationships related, my first instinct is to imagine a boy, but sometimes I see a girl, or or think about a girl and I like her and I wish I wasn't striaght? I'm not sure how to explain it. I feel like sexuality doesn't really matter, I like who I like whoever it is and how they identify, and I would gladly call myself pansexual but I've just never had anything with a girl or felt strong desires about them? It's always been boys and Idk if the thing I feel/think about girls sometimes is attraction or just general, like, kindness towards other humans? I thought it was "cool" to be something other than straight when I was younger for some reason and I'm afraid that this whole "sexuality crisis" is just because of that, that I don't want to be straight even though I am? Like - is that even a thing, wishing you were queer? I really like masculine guys but then I see a girl and I get all butterfly-y. Idk. Is it just a healthy appreciation or is it something more? It feels like I like girls but then if I imagine myself with a girl I feel like something would be... missing? It's possible to prefer a certain gender but still like the other one but - idk. I'm so confused by this because it's not like I like a girl but it's like I want to???