So, I am 22 and I have two best friends. One I have known sonce before I can remember - we grew up on the same street. She moved when we were 13 and after that she found a new friend who I now also have a solid frienship with. I don't have a lot of friends and these 2 are deifnatly my closest relations outside of family. All three of us have the same first name and so we have just been a natural sisters club since day 1. I love them to pieces.
Now to the issue. We are all three in University, at varying stagds of education -I'm in my last year, my oldest friend is about half-way and the third one is practically finish unless she choose to go back for a higher degree. They both live in the same city about 1h away from me. It is closer than where they lived before but still a distance that clearly affects our relationship. I often feel jelous and excluded/neglected due to the fact that I see them much less than they see eachother. Recently, besides COVID causing troubles, they 've been very busy in their lives and has cited that as the reason making it impossible to see eachother, or they change the type of plan we have/cancell last minute because they're tired. One has a live in partner, the other dates pn and off and both run their own household while I am single and still living at home. It's also made worse by them discussing moving around the country or even abroad, making me feel even more unimportant to them.
Part of me knows that because I've been bullied and had a hard time making friends I'm sensetive to these issues. Part of me knows that I feel like an immature child comparing my life to theirs and I shouldn't. But I also feel that they don't care as much as I do and they don't put in the effort I know I would to make sure we keep in contact and meet up regularly.
What does one do with these feelings? How do I make myself feel better? So far making a friend at school and becoming tight with her has helped but it and Tinder is not enough to deal with these ugly thoughts.