I’ve been talking to a guy for the past few weeks (maybe about a month and a bit? or more I don’t know) and recently he’s been hinting about going out/flirting with me and I’ve suddenly become afraid that he wants to be in a relationship with me. I get really anxious when thinking about a potential relationship with him—like, anxious to the point I don’t sleep, I feel sick, and I don’t eat. I really care about him (I don’t know if it’s romantic) but this really scares me. I don’t know if it’s just a lack of experience, fear of things going wrong, or something else, but it’s really bothering me. I do have trauma/mental illness which might be making things worse because I don’t want to burden him and I don’t understand why he would willingly want to be with someone with so many issues (this has led to me wondering if I’ve somehow tricked him? which doesn’t make sense). I’ve had friends in the past leave because I was honest about my trauma and they didn’t want to deal with that, so that’s making me nervous too (even though he knows about it and hasn’t left).
I don’t want to say anything just in case I’ve got the wrong impression. I haven’t spoken to him for a few days because I was struggling mentally and I’ve been trying not to push him away, but I keep thinking about it and getting scared. there’s so many thoughts and it feels kinda suffocating. is there anything I can do? thank you so much!