i've been friends with someone since elementary school. we're in college now and he's the only one who's trustworthy and reliable. basically my only friend. i always worry that he's gonna leave me like everyone else and so i've been getting mad at some things he does as an excuse to leave him before he leaves me. i exploded at him the other day and now we're taking a break from our friendship. he says he still wants to be friends and understands why i lashed out (my home situation isn't the best). what should i do? i've been alone my whole life so if he actually leaves then whatever i guess but i don't have anyone else i can turn to like him. but if i remain friends then i will always anticipate when he leaves me or hurts me.